Help!!!
"I can't do this, anymore. I've tried to deal with this every way I know how. I have tried to be happy, I have tried to get your attention, Lord knows I've tried to be the best I can be for you all. But, in doing this, I have lost myself, and I can't be found again. You may chalk this all up to me being "my usual attention-seeking" self, but I assure you it isn't. I have never desired your attention "just because". All I've ever wanted was the help I needed so desperately. You see, I'm not happy. I laugh the loudest, play the hardest and make everyone laugh more, but the darkness in me has grown to the point where I am consumed by it... If you're reading this, then I'm not around to make you laugh anymore, and I'm sorry. I really am, but I can't do this, anymore."
This was the letter his people had left of him. You see, he had taken his own life. He had ended it. Now, most of you might scream and say "oh, he'll burn in hell" or "why couldn't he be strong" or my personal favorite "Nawa for oyinbo thing oo. He didn't know he's in Nigeria?"
Let me try to shine my tiny light on it. Depression is as real as malaria and HIV/AIDS, and despite what everyone says about it being an impossible thing, it kills more people than ever. As Nigerians, we shrug it off as an international thing. "It just isn't very Nigerian" and other ignorant statements follow when someone complains of being clinically depressed. These, in turn, make the sufferers keep their pain inside,,and invariably, take the easiest way out.
Also, I've learned that it's not something you just "shake off", and it definitely isn't something you tell someone to tell the whole world. Help is needed for anyone suffering from depression.
I could go on and on, but I'll end this with this. If you are suffering from depression, then try to find help. If you're in a place where you will be mocked,relocate. If you can't relocate, go online and look for support groups. You are not alone. You will get the help you need. Don't give up. Try to be stronger than you are now. It all seems bleak, and it's not encouraging, but you can do it.
This was the letter his people had left of him. You see, he had taken his own life. He had ended it. Now, most of you might scream and say "oh, he'll burn in hell" or "why couldn't he be strong" or my personal favorite "Nawa for oyinbo thing oo. He didn't know he's in Nigeria?"
Let me try to shine my tiny light on it. Depression is as real as malaria and HIV/AIDS, and despite what everyone says about it being an impossible thing, it kills more people than ever. As Nigerians, we shrug it off as an international thing. "It just isn't very Nigerian" and other ignorant statements follow when someone complains of being clinically depressed. These, in turn, make the sufferers keep their pain inside,,and invariably, take the easiest way out.
Also, I've learned that it's not something you just "shake off", and it definitely isn't something you tell someone to tell the whole world. Help is needed for anyone suffering from depression.
I could go on and on, but I'll end this with this. If you are suffering from depression, then try to find help. If you're in a place where you will be mocked,relocate. If you can't relocate, go online and look for support groups. You are not alone. You will get the help you need. Don't give up. Try to be stronger than you are now. It all seems bleak, and it's not encouraging, but you can do it.
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ReplyDeleteWelcome back Sukky 😊
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